Cute? No hunny, I'm beautiful.

Cute. I'm sick and tired of the word "Cute". I mean, cute is way better than ugly, don't get me wrong. I have always been the good friend, you know the girl who guys hang out with but that nobody wants to really date and I've felt that way prominently because of my size. For a very long time, I've felt complexed about my body and how people saw me.If you didn't know, I am not super model size. I am not 5'10 and I do not have legs that could go on for days. I am short and curvy. All my life, all I've heard is "Oh, you're so cute but you could be beautiful if you were skinnier" or "Wow, that dress would look amazing if you lost at least 20 pounds". I'd always try to not let it get to me but there comes a time where even self-confidence cannot manage to drown out all the negativity.I've tried to harm my body countless times by not eating or drinking at all for days on end. It took me a very long time to realise that my size did not define me one bit; I could be the skinniest bitch around, if I didn't feel beautiful on the inside, then I was not truly beautiful. I realize now that as long as I'm healthy, I can be my own supermodel.

So a few nights ago, I couldn't sleep so I decided to watch some T.V and there was this documentary on the newest plus size model who was turning heads. Her name is Tara Lynn and she first graced the covers of W and Elle France. She is gorgeous and she's a size 48Eu/16Us/18Uk.

This gave me a lot of hope, considering the times we do live in where size 0 is plastered all over the covers of magazines. These magazines do not seem to realize that the average woman is a size 12 and it was so refreshing to see a real woman with real curves on her body, and not Photoshop-acquired ones, on the cover of a magazine. Maybe this will be a wake-up call for all these girls who strive so hard to look like their Photoshopped idols, sometimes detoriating their physical and mental health; maybe they should just realize that beauty comes in all different shapes and sizes. So the next time someone says "Oh, you're so cute!", I'll be like, "Not trying to be conceited but cute? No, hunny, I'm beautiful."